Here they are. Every gratitude post so far.
At the end of 2015 someone in the Sunday Assembly Newcastle suggested a Facebook gratitude group. The idea is to post something every day for which you are thankful. The idea doesn't work out that way as there are maybe half a dozen posts each day in total from the current bunch of seventy-five members.
I've been trying to post each day but haven't always succeeded. So far I have missed nine days. Nine. Maybe my next challenge will be to write a gratitude thing for each of those days - if I have a photo or a facebook post to remind me of what on earth I was doing at the time. I know that for some of the days I just didn't have time to post. I can see from the days around them that I was having a good time. Yes, maybe a post of all the missed posts is needed - just so I can have a sense of completeness.
And for my own benefit mainly I have blogged my gratitude diary so I can look back on the days and weeks and months and see how much good there has been in my life. Due to my mental health and also the difficulties inherent in autism it can be very difficult sometimes. It's great to be able to look back so easily and great that my screensaver on the laptop contains hundreds (maybe thousands by now) of photographs of things that were good or still are good.
I think keeping the diary has been good for me. It's become part of my self care regime. I remember in 2001 I was part of an online support group for people who self harm. As part of that group people wrote lists of "pozzies". Ten positive things each day. There were times back then I could sit for an hour trying to write that list and would still be struggling to write the first one. And yet there were good things in my life then. I just couldn't see them or think about them at the time. Life is so much better now and I can find things to be thankful for even on the days that I could chalk up as being pretty crap. Like the ones where I have panic attacks in the street. Or can't leave the house at all. The ones on which I meltdown. The ones on which it's tempting to give up, despair, hate myself. I still find the positives. Because there are always positives. Always.
I am very thankful for my life. It's a struggle. But I am determined. And so, there is all this:
2016. Day one.
December 30th to January 7th.
January 8th to January 18th. (Missing January 10th)
January 19th to January 23rd
January 24th to January 30th
January 31st to February 7th
February 9th to February 15th
February 16th to February 22nd (no February 20th)
February 23rd to February 28th (missing February 29th)
March 1st to March 7th
March 8th to March 15th (missing March 9th)
March 16th to March 23rd
March 24th to March 27th
March 28th to March 30th
April 1st to April 8th
April 9th to April 15th (no April 12th)
April 16th to April 23rd (no April 17th or April 20th)
April 24th to April 28th (no April 24th)
April 29th to May 2nd
May 3rd to May 6th
May 7th to May 10th (no May 7th)
May 11th to May 14th
May 15th to May 19th
May 20th to May 23rd
May 24th to May 29th
May 30th to June 5th
June 6th to June 12th
June 13th to June 17th
June 18th to June 21st
June 22nd to June 26th
June 27th to June 30th
The missing days - or at least eight out of nine of them